Most couples do not even have to think twice when they decide to start a family. Most come to a decision, do the deed. . .maybe it takes a few months, but then they are pregnant and preparing to welcome a bundle of joy into the world.
Well, that explains most, but not all couples. The ones who don't fit into the "norm" are those who are in the same boat as myself and my husband. We made the decision to start a family, but for us that was the easy part and thus or long and winding road to parenthood started.
My husband deployed to Afghanistan in 2008 and returned home in 2009. Once he had been home for a while and I was nearly finished with my Master's degree we decided that it was time to expand our family. I never in a million years thought that I would have trouble having a baby, but a few months into things this nightmare became a reality.
After trying to conceive for several months and not having a monthly cycle for 4 of those months, my doctor decided that we were not going to be able to do this on our own. Since I had not had a monthly cycle for so long, we got to skip the normal year waiting period to start fertility treatments.
It is very difficult to not feel like a failure and like I wasn't letting my husband down. Luckily my husband is amazing and he is in this 100% with me and never lets me get down on myself.
If I would have known that all of this would have been the easy parts of becoming a parent, I would have told you were crazy! This was all the easy part. Since I have had to deal with insurance (or lack there of), feeling like an out cast and so much more. But, I will save something for next time.
My hopes for starting this blog is to be able to speak out about infertility and hopefully to help someone not feel the way that I have felt.
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